One of my favorite things in life is drinking tea. I actually have a cup cooling right now as I write this. 🙂 I love pouring the happy energetic water into my mug and watching as the color of the tea softly seeps out of the bag, strands of color twirling and widening to fill up the mug. I love watching the steam rise from mug, soft ghostly wisps gently waving and disappearing into the air.
I would always have a cup of tea with my breakfast before school when I was younger, and on cold mornings I would hold the warm mug tightly in my hands and bring my face very close to the surface of the tea to be bathed by the steam. I would stare at the beautiful golden color of my green tea and imagine myself shrinking and sinking into the tea, swimming in its warmth, my whole body immersed in comfort and its lovely scent.
As for the taste – I’ve never understood people who put sugar and/or milk in their tea, I find that those things diminish the natural taste of the tea. Black tea can be a bit bitter, and can sometimes benefit from a little bit of honey, but as I’ve grown older I’ve come to love the bitter taste more and more. And really, the bitter taste in Earl Grey tea isn’t that bitter, it’s more of an earthy and robust flavor.
It’s that flavor, mixed with intoxicating scent, and the warmth of the mug that makes me feel that everything will be okay when I drink my tea. I feel calm but focused, thoroughly enjoying the present moment. It is a kind of meditation for me. I love drinking my tea in the early mornings, outside on my deck looking at all the trees and green plants around me, imagining them waking up and bathing in the sunlight for a few moments before getting to work at photosynthesis. Or drinking my tea at night, when everything is quiet and the world drifts into a relaxed sleep and although I am still awake, I can feel the peace and stillness of my fellow living organisms.
I hope that everyone can find a bit of peace in their lives through tea. 🙂
So, I haven’t written anything in a while, and I want to change that, even if it’s just this short quick post before I meet up with my friend in a few minutes.
I could say that haven’t written because I got caught up with my job (I was teaching kids in Detroit for a few months), and it’s true I was really exhausted during that time, but I haven’t had that job since May (program was cut) and I still haven’t written anything. I honestly can’t believe it’s already almost the end of summer! I have been living most days pretty fully I think by spending a lot of time outside and trying to engage with the present, but it still seems to have gone by too quickly! As for writing, every day I say I’ll do it, just oh! I have to do this first or need to do that first and consequently I haven’t had time for writing because I haven’t made any time.
I’m trying to work on having a more organized life. I will say that I have pretty much fixed my sleep schedule, partially because of the gardening job I have now makes me get up early, but also because I realized as much as I absolutely LOVE staying up late, and it does feel really good during those times, I feel kinda meh during the rest of the day when I finally wake up. But when I wake up in the morning, I feel fresh and like I can be productive, like I can actually create something with my day! So during the days I don’t work I want to for the most part keep my sleep schedule going.
I still don’t have an official routine though, and I think that’s what’s hindering me from writing partially – because there are many days where I remember I want to write when it’s later in the day and I’m just too tired. I need to make a habit of writing earlier in the day, probably after exercising a bit so I can feel like I’ve actually started the day.
That’s what I’m committing to. I hope I can stick with it and persevere and keep writing even if I feel like it’s shit. And then work through the shittyness and improve until I have something that I can actually be proud of.
Thanks for reading this, and I hope you have a great day. 🙂