It’s been…about a year since my last post! I never expected to be gone so long, but life is a funny thing.
I basically got a job and let it take over my life (and a good portion of my mental and emotional state). I’ve been working as the front desk at a dental office, and if you’re like me a year ago, you may think that sounds like a pretty chill, relaxing position. Certainly, all the dental offices that I have gone to as a patient seemed that way. Although now I’m realizing it might’ve been because they were private practices.
The office I work for is a part of a large corporation, and it is, in a word, hectic. The phones are constantly ringing, we get a fair amount of walk-ins, and even when you think you’ve done all your work, there is always more work to do. Insurance verification, talking to representatives about the details of plans or why claims were not paid, making treatment plans, managing the schedule (which involves a lot more than one would expect), responding to all types of patient questions/complaints ranging from the normal to the bizarre and flat-out ridiculous, I could go on and on.
However, it is not really the busyness that I mind, it is the busyness combined with soap opera drama that is my workplace. For an office that has less than 10 staff, it is really absurd how much drama occurs. Gossiping, betrayal, tantrums, sharp remarks all keep the pot of negativity brewing and bubbling. Of course, not all days are like this, but enough that I almost quit on the spot three times.
I actually did try to quit for real at one point. I gave my notice, counted down the days, but then when my boss offered me more money and allowed me to work part-time I decided to stay.
It has certainly been so much less stressful working since then, and I get along well with many of the people in the office, yet I still somewhat dread going into work. However, as currently I am planning to move out of my parents’ house, and am seriously paying off my student loans, every bit of money is necessary. I’m keeping my eyes on the prize and working towards my goals. 🙂
And one of those goals is to get back to writing on here. Although I have a bit of a tumultuous relationship with the process of writing, in the end when I do write it is a rewarding experience that also helps bring clarity into my life. And, ultimately, I do want to craft a body of work and get it published. This sort of project is very intimidating to me, as it is, more than anything, a test of discipline, which is not a strong quality of mine. However, the only way to get better at something is to keep practicing, and that is what I aim to do. 🙂