Classic twist, I think I’m falling for you


It’s a Saturday afternoon, and I’m sitting at my desk with my hair freshly washed, looking out the window at this gray day and just smiling and vibing to this song as it plays on my computer. Closing my eyes I imagine I’m at the beach underneath a swaying tree, watching bright blue waves crash against the shore, hands absentmindedly playing with sand. My head and feet move on their own to the beat, getting lost in the metronome.


The Most Important Things I’ve Learned Working at a Dental Office


  1. Know what type of insurance you have and the details of your plan.
    I can not stress this enough. Do you have a co-pay? A deductible? What is the maximum or does your plan follow a fee schedule? What is the percentage breakdown? Does your plan have a waiting period? Does it have a missing tooth clause? What is the frequency limitation for FMX, PAN, Bitewing, PA xrays? Does your emergency exam share frequency with your regular dental exams? How many times (if any) can you have a filling done on the same tooth? If you have periodontal disease can you have more than 2 cleanings a year and if you get an SRP done will it be covered or does your insurance require you to have osseous surgery first?Β  I mention all these specifics because I have seen patients getting screwed and owing big bills because they did not know their insurance plans and certain details slipped by those staff making treatment plans because there are LITERALLY THOUSANDS of different insurance plans and it is impossible for office staff to catch every important detail of every plan (particularly when certain insurances may not list all important details on their websites/faxes, and there are really fun (i.e. annoying) companies that don’t have websites or send faxes and will only give out information verbally over the phone).
  2. You need to floss. Seriously.Β 
  3. You need to brush your teeth properly, paying special attention to brushing the parts where your teeth meet the gums. You need to take care of your gums because if you don’t you WILL get periodontal disease and it is NOT reversible. Once you have it you are stuck with it for life and you need to come in to your dental office every 3 months to get a cleaning (note: you cleaning your teeth at home will not be good enough at this point because for periodontal disease the hygienist cleans below the gums and this requires a special tool) otherwise you will have bone loss and this will ultimately prematurely mess up your face. Don’t get periodontal disease.
  4. If you get a root canal done, you need a crown. Often a core as well. I know (all too well) that they can be hella expensive depending on the kind of insurance you have (Total cost for root canal+ core+ crown may range from $400-$2000. And yes, that’s only for one tooth) but you need a crown because your tooth is brittle (because after a root canal it essentially is hollow on the inside) and is more than likely to crack if you don’t get a crown to protect it. And after going through the terrible pain (and cost!) of getting a root canal done to save the tooth it only makes sense to protect your investment.
  5. Really, you need to floss. And properly – you shouldn’t be slamming the floss down on the gums, you need to gently ease the floss between the teeth and use it to scrape off the gunk that’s accumulated between the teeth. Your gums will bleed at first, but after about a week of flossing once every day they will stop and it won’t be such an awful experience.
  6. Want to save yourself hundreds, no, thousands of dollars? Take care of your teeth. Dentistry is expensive and it is in your best interest to take care of your teeth. Go to your office for your regular cleanings (1 x 6 months for regular cleanings, 1 x 3 months for periodontal cleanings). Brush in circular motions around the gums. When the dentist says you have cavities and need fillings, GET THEM DONE. If you don’t get a filling done, you will need a root canal. If you fail to get a root canal, the tooth will die and has to be extracted. Then you need to fill the hole because if you don’t 1) supraeruptionΒ 2) bone loss 3) messed up face will happen. And if you do fill the hole it will have to be with either a denture (which doesn’t prevent bone loss) or a bridge or implant (both hella expensive, but worth it as they do prevent bone loss), when all that trouble could have been saved literally by just cleaning your teeth properly and getting fillings/root canals done when you were told you needed them.
  7. If you have a DMO insurance, make sure the office you go to is the one you’re assigned to and if you’re about to go to a new office CALL YOUR INSURANCE to get them to assign you to that office, otherwise if you go to an office you’re not assigned to your insurance may not cover ANYTHING, leaving you with a huge bill.
  8. If you hate flossing and refuse to do it, at least get yourself a Water Flosser. NOTE: It does NOT replace traditional flossing, but it is certainly better than doing nothing at all.


Note: I work in an office in the United States that is a part of a corporation. There may be insurance/billing differences in private practices/other countries.

I may do another list like this in the future, since there are SO many things I learned working at my job, but if y’all have any questions, I’m happy to answer them, provided that I am able to of course.

Hello there :)


It’s been…about a year since my last post! I never expected to be gone so long, but life is a funny thing.

I basically got a job and let it take over my life (and a good portion of my mental and emotional state). I’ve been working as the front desk at a dental office, and if you’re like me a year ago, you may think that sounds like a pretty chill, relaxing position. Certainly, all the dental offices that I have gone to as a patient seemed that way. Although now I’m realizing it might’ve been because they were private practices.

The office I work for is a part of a large corporation, and it is, in a word, hectic. The phones are constantly ringing, we get a fair amount of walk-ins, and even when you think you’ve done all your work, there is always more work to do. Insurance verification, talking to representatives about the details of plans or why claims were not paid, making treatment plans, managing the schedule (which involves a lot more than one would expect), responding to all types of patient questions/complaints ranging from the normal to the bizarre and flat-out ridiculous, I could go on and on.

However, it is not really the busyness that I mind, it is the busyness combined with soap opera drama that is my workplace. For an office that has less than 10 staff, it is really absurd how much drama occurs. Gossiping, betrayal, tantrums, sharp remarks all keep the pot of negativity brewing and bubbling. Of course, not all days are like this, but enough that I almost quit on the spot three times.

I actually did try to quit for real at one point. I gave my notice, counted down the days, but then when my boss offered me more money and allowed me to work part-time I decided to stay.

It has certainly been so much less stressful working since then, and I get along well with many of the people in the office, yet I still somewhat dread going into work. However, as currently I am planning to move out of my parents’ house, and am seriously paying off my student loans, every bit of money is necessary. I’m keeping my eyes on the prize and working towards my goals. πŸ™‚

And one of those goals is to get back to writing on here. Although I have a bit of a tumultuous relationship with the process of writing, in the end when I do write it is a rewarding experience that also helps bring clarity into my life. And, ultimately, I do want to craft a body of work and get it published. This sort of project is very intimidating to me, as it is, more than anything, a test of discipline, which is not a strong quality of mine. However, the only way to get better at something is to keep practicing, and that is what I aim to do. πŸ™‚


Toxic friends

Toxic friends
burn like stomach acid
when you’ve thrown up.
Even with them out of your system,
a rancid taste lingers in your mouth.

Your stomach is empty and hungry,
begging to be filled.
But while it may be quick and easy
to fill it with chips and cookies,
only a nourishing meal
will truly satiate it.

So you wash and peel and chop the vegetables,
grease the frying pan,
throw down some garlic and spices,
listen for that sensuous sizzle before
adding zucchini, red peppers, broccoli, tomatoes,
while in the other pot you have rice cooking,
and in another pan a fat fillet of salmon
needing to be turned over,
lemon juice squeezed,
black pepper ground.

Time and effort pay off
and deliver you a meal that satisfies all your senses.

Time and effort make you forget
that rancid meat
that looked so appetizing on the surface,
so delectable to chew,
but once inside you,
poisoned you.

Time and effort bring friends into your life
who are nourishing,
and nontoxic.

In a purple state of mind

Purple is the color of passion
shivers of anxiety racing through my nerves
action potentials firing off

connecting-connecting-connecting-connecting-connecting-connecting-every neuron-connecting

dendritic chaotic fractals spiraling out
every inch of my skin is pricked,
the electricity looking for a way out

My amygdala spits out emotion like a nail gun
my heart and brain under attack
Purple, purple
leaks out my eyes
and sails the sound waves out my mouth
while my brain changes like a chameleon:
Excited magenta
Melancholy violet
Dark, stormy aubergine

Sizzling and boiling, something is cooking.

via Daily Prompt: Purple


I often wonder what it’s like to live in a supportive household. What it would be like to have parents who said things to encourage me instead of to tear me down. What it would be like to have my actual efforts acknowledged instead of having my inadequacies thrown into my face.

I’m at a point in my life where I’m in between jobs and not sure of what I want to do career-wise (which has made it so difficult to even decide which jobs to apply to), working on cover letters and applications, cognizant of my student loans that have to be paid, and yet all of that, all of those very real concerns, do not compare in the slightest to how stressed I feel when I interact with my family. I’m at a point where I literally can not tell them absolutely anything about my job search, because anything I say, even if it is positive like the fact that three companies have reached out to tell me they are reviewing my application, will be thrown back in my face. Every single thing that comes out of their mouths is negative, and makes this whole process incredibly more difficult. Because now I not only have to juggle job searching and applying, I have to juggle my mental health as well. I have to fight against the self-doubt, the feelings of hopelessness, the emotional and physical exhaustion, and the general apathy that sets in when they talk to me.

I am naturally a very positive, cheerful person. I am naturally an optimistic, hopeful person. But all of that completely reverses after interacting with my parents. All of that falls apart. And then for the thousandth time I have to pick myself back up, I have to remind myself that I’m doing this work forΒ me, not for them. I have to do my best to bring back my mental stability, my mental clarity. It’s like I’m fighting an uphill battle, and I’ve also got a bull that’s trying to push me off the hill at the same time. It’s exhausting.

That’s what’s happening right now. But it’s the Spring Equinox, and I’m hopeful for a change. I will keep working hard, and I am hopeful some good will come out of it.

Spring is almost here! :)

I was walking in the woods by my house today, reveling in the warmth of the sunshine, listening to birds chatter, looking at the glistening clumps of snow slowly dissolve, feeling excited because the first signs of spring have started to sprout through the earth. πŸ™‚

And in the air! When I was trying to get a closer look a red cardinal who was joyfully singing, I noticed some small hints of green in the shrubs along the path. Taking a closer look I saw that these were small buds that had just recently burst open (picture above). These tiny, delicate reservoirs of life seemed so happy and cheerful in the sunlight, as if they were eager to get started on growing and developing.

Although the trees haven’t yet joined in in opening their buds, their branches were still full of life with birds and squirrels and other little animals flitting about. I watched a few wood peckers working hard to get a tasty treat, their beaks drumming against the trees like natural percussion players. Meanwhile squirrels scampered from tree to tree, their fluffy tails gracefully flowing with every hop and leap.

I stood next to a tree and rested against its dry, warm bark imagining a dryad sleeping inside, only to awaken on the Spring Equinox in four days. My boots sunk in the squishy, squelching mud as I gazed at the shadow of the tree’s branches on the ground, stretching out like lung bronchi. The air felt like a heart starting back up after cardiac arrest, pulsating with stronger and stronger life force, Spring just around the corner πŸ™‚

Tree and Me